You are Appreciated

There’s a day that I will never forget

I sat on her lap gave her a huge hug and kissed her on the cheek

I asked her if she would always be there for me to save me from all the monsters

And she responded “No, there aren’t any monsters"

So I tried asking again hoping that she would give me a different answer

And asked

“Would you try to take them away?”

And she said "Yes"

The monsters I was thinking of were ones that lingered under my bed

Behind shadows

In closets

Ghouls and goblins

Green monsters from TV with eerie voices

Blood sucking vampires

And evil spell binding witches

As I grew older

These Ghouls turned to loneliness

Goblins into despair

Scary things from under my bed became betrayal, bipolar disorder, anger management, trust issues and Death.

If only I could go back to when my mother used to rub my forehead

Back to the days when she was able to cure my bumps and bruises with band aids

If only life were that simple

She used to say don’t be in such a hurry to grow up

Childhood years are short

I never knew what she meant just knew in the back of my head that I would one day understand

She was my first home

 Home is where the heart is

And my mother was my first kiss

The transfer of love from her lips to my forehead

And my mother taught me how to be kind

Taught me the value friendship

Also taught me the good old fashion beatings

I was sheltered

Only because she was trying to protect me

I no longer need protection

You need it now

But I promise to take care of you when you get to old age

To dry your eyes the same way you did for me when I was younger

To give you head rubs when you no longer can walk

To give back the same love that you taught me

You see I know nothing last forever

And one day we will no longer be next to each other in the flesh

But our mother daughter bond shall live forever

And when I have my own daughter I will do things a little differently

But I will always show her how to pray how you taught me

Hot to love how u loved me

How to forgive how u forgave me

And if could take back every wrong thing I ever said about you

I would

But I can’t

So I will just make it up

Because this is unconditional love

And though we aren’t traditional best friends

In my mind you are

Because a best friend does exactly what you do

And though sometimes you don’t understand what I do

I know u still have the faith in me that I’m doing it all for the right reasons

And though I have broken your heart

Done the all the wrongs things just to get them right

I’m proud to say you have taught me well

For this I am thankful

There’s no greater love then a mothers love

 How I beg to be that little girl again

The one who run by her side

Hold her hand to cross the street

Now I’m too old for that

If only I could go back and have my mother tuck me in bed

To the moment when she taught me how to pray

Taught me to believe in higher beings

She spoke of God and all the miracles he created

And I believed every word

And when I was down you said

"Nadie se a muerto , levantate de ahi que el mundo sique y sique”

And when I ran away you took me back with open arms

And when I’m down to my last dollar

You give me your last dollar

If I’m hungry you would give me your last meal

And if you could take the load off my back

You would

So correction

Because you did show me how to kill off the monsters

By Lina Gonzalez